this is it. life starts seriously. NOW.

HAHA. i'll never be serious though. i play too much. and that's my problem.

i regret not doing alot of things. It should be in mockingbird, where it says something along the lines of when people have the ability to change something, they have the responsibility to do it.

God has given me alot of talents, alot of good relationships with people, where i have a say in things, and i can actually influence other people. when you say something and people listen to you, that's something very good already. being salt and light is not just about telling others about christ. As i get to know God more and more, i understand how important prayer is, and especially reading His word. Now as i look back i should and could have done so much more in primary sch.

When i listen to adlin go on and on about jay, (haha) i wonder why can't i talk about God like that. I love God too. When people love someone, they are bound to talk on and on about that person. Why am i shy to tell others about my very best friend when others can list things about those they love ceaselessly?

when i did the class forum for sec twos yesterday, i was taken aback when they considered talking bad about others on blogs is not considered bullying. i was shocked, really. like mrs kwok said, the generations have changed, and many of us are having our values shaped by what we see on tv, the music we listen to. now, the world tells us to take care of ourselves. us first, others second. but God tells us to do the exact opposite. He did not come here to be served, but to serve. This is the exact mentality of the world that God tells us not to follow. I have nothing against any of my friends, or any of the people i have met yesterday. instead, i love them, and i wish to see them become better people. for me, i think it's pointless to hate or to hold grudges. there may be people i don't get along with, but that doesn't mean that i have a reason to pin their faces on a dart board and throw colourful pointy things. because He told me to love, i will. to all those that think i am blindly following whatever my God says to me; i think if someone died for me, i owe that person loads. imagine how much i owe God. i pinned Him to that cross. listening and following is the least i can do.

American idol is on. I always wanted to be singing on a huge stage, having millions of people cheer me on. but now, this just reminds me that all these are so superficial. you want statistics, i'll give you statistics. ONE of out ONE die. 100%. and when we are no longer part of the world, it really won't matter how many people have cheered us on, or have loved us. everybody knows this. some people work hard to achieve what they want, some think it's pointless since we're going to die anyway. I admire those that work hard, because they are giving their best for things. Those that are lazy, well, are really wasting thier lives away. but one thing's for certain, no matter how much effort you have put into living your life out, alot or none at all, you'll die one day. But i'm not living for a lost cause. i'm not. i'm definitely not. i'm not living for the treasures of this world. i'm not living for my parents. i'm not living for other people. i'm not even living for my future husband. i'm living for my God. i don't want anything to change that. and i know that nothing will, cause he has promised He will be with me till the very end.

If you have read until here, you might think i'm nuts. that i should be locked in an asylum and left there for my own good. haha. maybe i should. but one thing i know for sure, is that people were made for good relationships, that we are here to go through life, to get to know everyone else, and most importantly know God. Only then will life make sense.

no one forced me, and i'm glad.

love ya,
Elza.

HAHA

people must learn to smile more. I'm serious. Life can't just go by without us enjoying it. Hey. God created us to live with Him. I'm sure He doesn't want us to walk around with this stressed out look and relying on caffine to haopefully survive for the rest of the week without commiting suicide.

what we all need is an escape from reality. But i can't. nothing i'm doing is working. that's because we aren't supposed to escape. we're supposed to live in it. Change it if possible. Make a difference to this sombre world that cares about very little other than results, deadlines, and conforming to society.

But i'm glad that there's hope. I thank my God in every remembrace of you, each and everyone who has been there for everything i've done. thanks for the memories. thanks for the blue sky. thanks for the laughter i get to hear everyday. We were made to laugh. We were made for joy. that's what i believe. it's up to you to join me.

Thanks for the people who care. Thanks for those who don't mind lending an unbrella to the drenched elza's of this world.

I don't know who you are. I don't know where you come from. But this i know well.

We need more people like you.

arigato.
Elza.

e learning day 2 ^^

haha I went to the children's section and found a power point. no body's here so I'm really glad my grandma remended me about this place.

hmm...I don't know what you'll think of me after you read this. Stupid? scatterbrained? plain crazy?

I came here at 10am cuz i thought the library would be opened by then. (I checked library opening hours on the sch com yesterday) turns out the library opens at 11, so I decided to go to bukit panjang plaza starbucks and access the internet from there. 975 just goes there straight, so I waited for the bus. I don't know whether I was too busy reading my book, or taking care of my laptop that I boarded 925 instead, and went to all the industrial sites in Kranji. I was quite scared, I've never liked being lost. But I guessed I would be fine, and then I prayed to God. He comforted me, and somehow I knew it would be ok. But that trip was really an eye opener for me. I really didn't know that this part of Singapore existed, where all the foreign workers actually go to work to. Actually I think that singaporeans should really respect these people more. Just because they do manual work, or what we think is all the dirty jobs, I believe they are very nice deep down. we are all human anyway, and God made us all the unique, and in some sense equal.

Anyway, I got this feeling a few months ago, when God somewhat put this thought in my heart, when I was looking out my house window. There are so many ppl out there that actually need God, who don't even know Him. I am VERY fortunate to know about God, and more importantly to know God. He has really changed my life and my attitude to everything. I really thank God for letting me make that mistake, for I have now realised that he is my comforter and my strength when I feel everything is so messed up.

And for the song that I have to sing for the jym vocal course, I now realise that wherever I go, He's there with me. And I don't want to go far away from him, cuz I love Him way too much.

And I could really go into a rant about something else, but now I will just resign to thanking God for everything that I can think of.

Thank you for letting me know you, God.

no longer pissed with e learning cuz I thank God for it,
Elza

hey all

haha I'll make this a quickie cause my battery's dying

today was e learning. My foot. The only thing I learned was that school computers are even slower than normal and they don't work when about a thousand ppl are accessing the system at the same time. I shouldn't even have gone and wasted my precious time. I'm so coming to the library again tmw.

sigh. I have about ten percent of battery life left. anyway I guess e learning wasn't a complete failure, other than the learning part.

Facebook's quite awesome, though it gets a little boring after a while. so I'm looking for good websites to surf. Any recommendations?

I'm trying to write my story that was supposed to be for valentines day but I guess not. Maybe it'll be done by next year. XD but I hope it'll be good.

haha I guess I have to go. better post before batt dies.

long live e learning-you've got loads of death threats on facebook.

Elza the irritated.

haha this blog revived!!!

lol. I'm reviving this blog man...XD

hi to everyone that has been checking this page for a while and somehow notices that this post is new!! awesome right? before you fall off your seat and start rambling about how the world's about to end, don't worry, Elza's alive. It's just her internet life that's died! ><

haha I gtg do hw. writing a new story as well. I wonder if it'll be ready on valentine's day...cuz that's what I'm writing about. see ya~

the revived internet life^^

whahahaha

It's dead...oh yes this blog's dead...let the freedom bells ring!!!!XD

haha...oak outing yesterday was a blast. got a kick out from laughing at Ryan. hahaha....go see the photos...www.oak08.blogspot.com haha sorry jocelyn I just had to check out your photos too...

I've got GREAT NEWS!!! I learnt how to ride the bicycle in 20 minutes!!whohooooo....YAY! with injuries and all too but who cares. I know how to ride a bicycle!!!XD (after slamming into the bush, almost knocking into the sentosa tram and injuring myself while walking toward it. And yes I totally crushed the poor bush. there's a huge tyre thing in the middle of it.)

i'm currently eating my breakfast. Ban Mian. Who eats Ban Mian in the morning? especially after the person has eaten ban mian for lunch the previous afternoon. haha still laughing at ryan. you know if he collected five cents from every person who laughed at him, he'd be a millionare.

Anyway I know i'm supposed to be doing homework cause it's the last day of hols...but who cares. I'm not even halfway done. I suspect that very few people are anyway. sigh...

guess what...I actually made a video of me singing who am i...but the fact is that it totally sucks. so I'm not posting it, not now, not ever. *shudders* (when did I ever think I was good enough to post the video on youtube?!?!) (and no, it's not on youtube thank goodness...)

haha i've gotta get out of here...i think I need to update more...and change the song...XD annoying...

HELLO!

haha...added something new at the bottom. thinking of getting a new blogskin, but can't seem to find one. lol.

QUOTE OF THE WEEK! check it out at the bottom!

My first quote is from the wonderful people at school. haha.

knock yourselves out!XD